Cudahy: Traslado 5: Semana 5 / Aug. 25, 2010

Hey family and friends. :)
 
This week was really rough. We spent the week doing a lot of great training, and had an incredible zone conference with Elder Allen Packer. We have been learning how to do everything completely different. For some reason, probably with all of the changes and everything that has been going on lately, I was feeling really overwhelmed. I felt like I had hit my halfway mark and hadn't accomplished anything, and like I was a failure, and just really inadequate. I had been having a hard time with my companion and we both felt really misunderstood and unloved, like we've had three transfers together but still couldn't get it together and weren't really close friends. I think that Satan has been trying to give us a lot more opposition because he knows that all of the new things we are learning and doing in the mission are going to be so powerful. As Elder Packer said, we are learning the language of the spirit, and that is something that is going to change and bless the mission and me personally, and have an impact on my whole life. We are learning how to ask inspired questions and then just stop and listen for the spirit to guide us so we can discern. I have already seen the difference in my teaching and it is really powerful.
 
I also learned how powerful it is to pray and ask very specific questions to God, and listen to receive the specific answers. I received the answers to my prayers and the comfort and guidance I needed, as well as the ability to have a stronger friendship and companionship. I realized again that I need to stop being so hard on myself and expecting myself to be the perfect missionary. I think that it was just the fact that I've looked forward to my mission for my entire life, and I had so many huge expectations for myself. I just needed to realize that Heavenly Father has blessed me in so many ways, and there really was no reason to even be discouraged. I guess it was just a challenge to help me grow stronger. I feel like being on a mission breaks you down to your very core, so that way if you let him God can build you into the person he wants you to be. I don't have very much time to be specific this week, but just know that I've really appreciated having you all there for me and praying for me, and giving me that love and support when I desperately needed it, even if you didn't know that I did.
 
 
- Hermana Dansie